Happy Birthday

My little darling is turning one this coming Saturday and my heart is filled with complex emotions of joy, pure awe, and amazement. I cannot believe we will have a ONE year old in just days. Everyone that is close to TJ and I knew we were not in the total “parent” mind frame, and really weren’t planning on children until a couple years down the road. We basically leaned into the situation as “If it happens, it happens, what meant to be will…” AND shortly after that we became pregnant. I remember taking the pregnancy test right before TJ got home, saying “Oh my God” to my dogs, over and over again. I was SO excited and nervous and scared and elated! I literally was running around our living room and hallway filled with nerves trying to figure out how the hell I was going to let TJ know our lives were forever going to be changing.

Never in my life could I have imagined this love, this overwhelming happiness and pride that I have for my family and our daughter.

Of course with this big day coming up I started going through all of Gemma’s newborn pictures and the memories just hit me like a brick wall. I’ve cried so many times, it’s honestly probably a bit overdramatic, but I can’t help it! I decided to work on a “secret” project for TJ and Gemma (she’ll watch this when she’s older) , to reminisce our memories from this past year. So much growth, so much happiness, so much love.

To my greatest loves…